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Employment and The Holidays

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I have become a new person. In the last 6 months I’ve graduated from a four year private university with a bachelors in medical anthropology. I didn’t immediately find work but when I left school it was straight back to the good ole NYC and straight into the summer youth program working for minimum wage. I consider myself pretty lucky considering right at the end of the summer youth program I was interviewing for my next position and got a full time job in a physical therapy office. To be honest, I never thought receptionist work was in my future. It was truly heartbreaking to assume the dull, eventless routine working for people of equivalent character. My position has been hard for me, there is nothing I look forward to lately aside from quitting and moving on to bigger and greater things.

Employment wouldn’t be the centerfold of discussion if not for the time of year where I find myself in need of a position. It is almost impossible to find a job of significance during the holidays which is only making the season even more miserable for me. Seriously, job searching is not how you want to spend your holiday. I’d much prefer having a glamorous time with friends or a significant other but the end of school also marked the end of whatever type of social life I thought I had obtained. Not that I don’t try every so often now and then, but it’s been more dud then fun. I was even talking to a guy or two these last few months and I lost whatever energy I had left for foolishness. I would really love to sit and chat about my failure with finding an interesting and appealing member of the opposite sex but I would really need my friends around for me to be successful with my complaining.

The most important thing for me right now would be admission into the JET Program that I applied to earlier this month. That would give me the chance to teach English in Japan. And did I mention that it would be in Japan. Japan has been on my mind so much these last 6 months and it’s insane that with my constant thoughts my line sister, Dana, actually sent me an email randomly advertising the program. How does one really change the game of life? By leaving the country in my opinion. It’s a thrilling and frightening proposition but I would literally jump head first into it. What a leap towards satisfaction and happiness. This adult life is not (yet) glamorous, it’s not exciting and not progressing dramatically enough for me. I need to go to Japan.

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November 30, 2014 at 7:17 pm

The Stress

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The pressure will drive me insane. There is just too much for me to do in a day, a week a semester. Did I really have Spring Break just last week??? When I try to sleep at night I can’t. When I try to get naps they aren’t long enough. How does college expect me to survive. I can hardly think let alone do something productive. Not to mention I have two midterms coming up this week. Chemistry and philosophy, officially my most difficult classes. The worst part is for philosophy I have no idea what I’m even reading most of the time. How am I supposed to complete a whole midterm on the reading too? What worries me the most is that there is going to be a final O.O

I’m also working on an anthropology presentation that I have tomorrow. My partner and I never met up or even talked about it until yesterday. I am an absolute mess.

Danielle

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March 15, 2011 at 4:53 pm

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Finals Papers and Exams

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Stating the obvious here but the end of the semester is Friday. Yes, my final class for the Fall 2010 semester is this Friday. I am so stressed. I’m experiencing huge bouts of fatigue and depression. I have two papers to do in practically one day. Thursday. The worst part is that I haven’t even started either of  these papers. I’d rather be online blogging, which I’ve hardly had time to do, then start two very important papers. It’s ridiculous how askew my priorities are. One of these papers, mind you, is the final project for a class important to my major, Animal Embryology! At this moment I am sitting in the lab with my partners attempting to finish our experiment so that we can get some results on the table. We are the only team not complete at this point which is extremely distressing.

I don’t know what I am expecting myself to accomplish with how tired I’ve been. If I wanted to finish then I would need to work nonstop on those papers starting….well now. And I can’t with my embryology paper because we haven’t even finished our experiment. This week has been so frustrating for me, and although I don’t show it much in appearance I am super stressed at the moment. That is exactly what I do with everything. I act like I don’t give a shit the entire time but inside there is a mad rush in my head trying to work out a plan. With my level of procrastination I’d say that I probably don’t give a shit deep down. I just rush into a panic out of fear of failing.

Do I want to become an obstetrician and have a brilliant and bright future? Yes. Do I want to be a successful person in life? Yes. Do I want to be successful in college? I’m not sure. I am literally not giving it my all and I don’t even know how to begin to give my school work that much attention. I never studied in high school. Ever. I either knew it or I didn’t and even with that I still did pretty well with mostly A’s. College is totally different though. The professors expect me to not only study but also study at least 5 hours a week, per class! This is not crazy to some people because they’ve already been in the studying regime since high school. I, however, have been in my own little laid back bubble, naïve of what was to come to me once I stepped onto the Richmond campus. And I wanted to go to NYU! Psh. They would have slaughtered me after a few weeks. I can hardly believe I made it through this semester.

As I’m writing this I’m also admitting a lot of insecurities that I wasn’t even aware that I possessed. It’s like things are spilling through my fingers straight from the back of my head or something and I’m just realizing how scared I am about failing. I don’t want to coast through college. I want to be fantastic. And that means getting my ass off of WordPress right this minute and looking for sources for my FYS paper. I’ll be back once the semester is over.

Danielle

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December 1, 2010 at 8:22 pm

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Hello Again

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I don’t really know where to begin. For the time being I would just like to say hello again to my online journal. I have missed you. I feel like I am somewhat a new person from when I last posted. For starters, I am a college student now. I go to the University of Richmond, and live on the Westhampton College campus. It has been a great experience for me so far. I don’t feel quite as grown-up as I had initially thought I would once I got out of my house and into my dorm. I’m not exactly making my own rules, well besides deciding what ridiculous hour I will be getting to bed every night. Sleep is definitely one of my closest friends since I have begun school. If I have free time all I really want to do is crawl onto my elevated bed (that is a pain to get in) and roll up in my monkey snuggie and sleep the daylight away, that is if I don’t have anymore classes for the day. I like my roommate and the room we share. Her name is Fionna, she is Chinese and speaks Cantonese. She was born and raised in Massachusetts though, and has taught me a few things to say but she doesn’t read or write in her language. We’ve talked a lot about old Japanese movies we watched when we were younger, she watched them in Cantonese and I either enjoyed dubbed or subbed versions. I think we’ve come to agree that Spirited Away, Princess Mononoke and Howl’s Moving Castle are the best. She got me to watch some Totoro which I had always had glimpses of but never actually watched and in turn after I showed her Ponyo we argued about whether it was a bad movie since Miley Cyrus’ younger sister dubbed the voice a few years ago. I still think it is amazing and I watched the subbed version last night when I didn’t sleep until 6 a.m working on a bio paper. It really is such a cute movie. Speaking of my room, I have some pics of what my room initially looked like when I first set it up.

It’s changed a bit since then but I’d rather take more photos while the sun is up and the room is naturally lit. I will work on that tomorrow. And to just randomly throw my schedule out there, I am in 4 classes one of which has a lab for my biology class. The other 3 are Japanese, a first-year seminar in which I am taking a course on animals in literature, and a human figure art class where we sketch nude figures. I have so interesting choices here at Richmond so I’m pretty excited to continue choosing more courses. So, I’ve added in my first semester schedule. It is the worst I’ve seen by far among everyone I’ve met. My Wednesdays are completely packed and I always feel dead on my feet by the end of the day. Just another 2 months and that big mistake will be completely changed. Firstly, no 8 a.m classes! No Friday classes! And definitely no classes past 2! I have learned my lesson. But boy do I love college!

Danielle Smart ’14

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October 8, 2010 at 9:57 pm

The Big News

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Due to the a record number of applicants this year I was not accepted to Macaulay Honors College at Hunter College for the class of 2010. I’m so disappointed and down now because I lost this opportunity to go college for free. SO many perks not to mention it is an absolutely amazing and challenging school!! I just hope to everything that I will be accepted to my other 5 choices. It was really hard stomaching this rejection, I was so ready to fall out and cry but I know I must remain optimistic.

On the bright side I was still accepted into Hunter College and I consider that an honor even if the school itself is not and will not be free for me. I’m thankful to them for accepting me and if my other choices decide they also cannot accommodate me Hunter College will be where I will possibly spend my next 4 years.

Danni

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March 24, 2010 at 4:16 pm

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Update 01.06.10

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I got into HUNTER COLLEGE!!!!! All I have to do is wait and see if i was accepted as a University Scholar through the Macaulay Honors Branch of CUNY. If Macaulay accepts me it will be full scholarship and so many opportunities! :D I am so excited and afraid at the same time about what the outcome will be. I am completely dreading the day that letter shows up and tells me whether or not I have been accepted. This is one of the most terrifying waiting periods in my life. My anxieties have only been increasing since Christmas break ended over a month ago. Why most the milestone between adolescence and adulthood be so stressful. I feel like the universe is against me and doesn’t want me to make it. It’s trying to emotionally destroy me before I make it to June and walk across that stage. Sigh. One more month and I’ll know! あなた祈祷お願い!

Danielle

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February 6, 2010 at 6:53 pm

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Update 01.07.10

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I make a lot of mistakes while I’m posting I’ve realized. It’s because everything just come out of me in a rush and I end up being too lazy to check over it haha. Come on technology get a bit smarter so that you can instantly warn me when my grammar is incorrect too!

Since New Years I have been completely finished in my application process and I’ve never been more relieved, although, I still I have the waiting process going on >.>. Tried going to sleep super early these pass few days, just doesn’t work out. I end up staying on the computer all night and listening to music for hours. I’m unstoppable c:

I’ve applied for Beta Club in school too. That’s a little something extra I can add to my desperate last-minute dash for as many activities possible in my last year of high school. This is my first year of ever being involved in mush because I had always been so restricted at home with what I could do since my mom couldn’t take me anywhere with her job and didn’t want me to go anywhere alone. Sigh. I hope that doesn’t affect my acceptability-ness….

Danielle

EDIT: I under estimated WordPress’ intelligence. Selected the proofreading prompt and they’ve gone the whole nine yards editing my posts. Must take advantage! :D

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January 7, 2010 at 10:29 pm

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