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Summer Vacation Update

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What I want to do today is write a simple update about my time away from school staying with my aunt and sister in New York. So my mother moved with my little sisters to Tampa, Florida in March or April or something. It really was spontaneous, as she tends to be when she sees fit. My mom has always wanted to move to Florida so although I’m upset that I was left behind to fend for myself (which I’ve basically been doing since the summer before I started college) I’m happy that she’s gotten this chance to live somewhere she has always wanted to live. Me on the other hand, things haven’t been going so great.

I got a job at the nearest Friendly’s, and by near I mean an hour and a half bus ride into Long Island everyday. The money is satisfying, however, it is the most stress I have ever been under besides finals week. The people are either nice or ridiculously rude and the people I work with are all nuts. Not to mention if you get sick one day you might as well jump off a roof because they are going to be super pissed and threaten to fire your ass if you don’t come in even though you are going to have to get your aunt to come in and drag you out late in your shift so you can spend 6 hours in the emergency room on an IV drip. Oh, yes, it might just happen. But the money is satisfying. I haven’t saved enough because of the expenses I have while I’m here but it should be enough for my upcoming book fees and such. Such a ridiculous amount of money I have to spend when I get back to school.

I have this whole plan in my head it’s so perfect and real I can just taste it already. You see, I have always wanted to be a doctor, no joke, since I was about 6 years old. My mom and I used to watch TLC together all the time when all they had were hose medical shows and this one doctor, she was a pediatrician, hear name was Andrea Pennington I think, I always told my mom I want to be a doctor just like her. And so far my dream hasn’t changed, the type of doctor I want to become has changed a little but it’s still same ole’ with me. For the past 2 years maybe I’ve been thinking pediatrics and obstetrics and I can do it surely I mean what kind of rules are there for how many roles as a doctor you can be? Simply put, I settled with aspiring to become an OBGYN, obstetrics and gynecology. Sounds fun eh? I just really love babies and I get to learn more about my own body to boot. What I’d really love is to become one of those lifelong doctors, you know, like be the doctor that delivered you and became your pediatrician and so on and just stick with you. Like a family. I don’t know how popular that is but I know I’d really enjoy it.

So as part of this plan states I will do absolutely stellar next semester and bring myself way above that 3.0 gpa. I will exercise every morning now that my new dorm room is situated right outside of the gym. I will also spend my time wisely studying in the day and sleeping at night (duh). And as a side task I will fast on the weekends for enhanced spirituality but mostly to practice self control. All very doable. I’m a realist here. The excitement has been building up in me, so even though this hasn’t been the greatest, or worst, of summer vacations I have total confidence in how happy I can be once school comes around. I have a goal, not to strict and I WILL stick to it. I think this blog post was more to reassure myself than anything else but it’s nice to get down proof that I’m out there trying to improve my life.

Danielle

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July 28, 2011 at 11:57 am

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Update 04.14.11

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Next Friday marks the beginning of the end of classes. Since I have no Friday classes this means I have only 4 more days of classes before finals and before I can finally get out of here! To put it plainly, I am exhausted. I turned in my final paper for philosophy today and I still have a work in progress for a chemistry group project but besides that and finals I am practically finished. It feels so good to be alive :)

Last week was really the worst week of these two semesters for me. I pulled three all nighters and worked eight hour shifts four days out of the week. I must have slept about 9 hours that whole week. I’m still feeling the exhaustion now so when I went to sleep last night and got eight hours of sleep my body probably couldn’t believe it because I was in a state of physical shock the whole day.

Not to mention (that is such a contradictory statement) my mom moved to Florida exactly two weeks ago and doesn’t give a crap if I get the same amount of financial aid that I received for being an instate student. Luckily, I talked to the financial office and they said I have a grant that will carry over until next year. I’ve never been so angry at a single person. I don’t even want to go down there. I should make the condition that Sephora has to come with or I’m not coming. Great plan :) I’ve been working nonstop at the Cellar out of fear of not being able to afford my phone bill among other things. When ever I see shifts pop up I grab them immediately. I actually worked an extra cook shift yesterday and am working a server shift this Saturday. I’ll be working my regular Friday Sunday and Monday shift and this extra server shift. That’s my whole weekend. That means I worked five days this week. Wanna cry dude :(

Just two more weeks until I’m done and can say I’m a sophomore!

Danielle

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April 15, 2011 at 2:44 am

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The Stress

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The pressure will drive me insane. There is just too much for me to do in a day, a week a semester. Did I really have Spring Break just last week??? When I try to sleep at night I can’t. When I try to get naps they aren’t long enough. How does college expect me to survive. I can hardly think let alone do something productive. Not to mention I have two midterms coming up this week. Chemistry and philosophy, officially my most difficult classes. The worst part is for philosophy I have no idea what I’m even reading most of the time. How am I supposed to complete a whole midterm on the reading too? What worries me the most is that there is going to be a final O.O

I’m also working on an anthropology presentation that I have tomorrow. My partner and I never met up or even talked about it until yesterday. I am an absolute mess.

Danielle

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March 15, 2011 at 4:53 pm

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Finals Papers and Exams

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Stating the obvious here but the end of the semester is Friday. Yes, my final class for the Fall 2010 semester is this Friday. I am so stressed. I’m experiencing huge bouts of fatigue and depression. I have two papers to do in practically one day. Thursday. The worst part is that I haven’t even started either of  these papers. I’d rather be online blogging, which I’ve hardly had time to do, then start two very important papers. It’s ridiculous how askew my priorities are. One of these papers, mind you, is the final project for a class important to my major, Animal Embryology! At this moment I am sitting in the lab with my partners attempting to finish our experiment so that we can get some results on the table. We are the only team not complete at this point which is extremely distressing.

I don’t know what I am expecting myself to accomplish with how tired I’ve been. If I wanted to finish then I would need to work nonstop on those papers starting….well now. And I can’t with my embryology paper because we haven’t even finished our experiment. This week has been so frustrating for me, and although I don’t show it much in appearance I am super stressed at the moment. That is exactly what I do with everything. I act like I don’t give a shit the entire time but inside there is a mad rush in my head trying to work out a plan. With my level of procrastination I’d say that I probably don’t give a shit deep down. I just rush into a panic out of fear of failing.

Do I want to become an obstetrician and have a brilliant and bright future? Yes. Do I want to be a successful person in life? Yes. Do I want to be successful in college? I’m not sure. I am literally not giving it my all and I don’t even know how to begin to give my school work that much attention. I never studied in high school. Ever. I either knew it or I didn’t and even with that I still did pretty well with mostly A’s. College is totally different though. The professors expect me to not only study but also study at least 5 hours a week, per class! This is not crazy to some people because they’ve already been in the studying regime since high school. I, however, have been in my own little laid back bubble, naïve of what was to come to me once I stepped onto the Richmond campus. And I wanted to go to NYU! Psh. They would have slaughtered me after a few weeks. I can hardly believe I made it through this semester.

As I’m writing this I’m also admitting a lot of insecurities that I wasn’t even aware that I possessed. It’s like things are spilling through my fingers straight from the back of my head or something and I’m just realizing how scared I am about failing. I don’t want to coast through college. I want to be fantastic. And that means getting my ass off of WordPress right this minute and looking for sources for my FYS paper. I’ll be back once the semester is over.

Danielle

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December 1, 2010 at 8:22 pm

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New Post!

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Quick dash of a post and I’ll explain in a minute yo! xD

 

Danielle

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November 13, 2010 at 8:36 am

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Readings

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At the moment I am in my dorm snuggled in my bed, blasting Florence and the Machine in my ears, trying to read these pages for my first year seminar class. The amount of pages this woman wants us to read a day is absolutely ridiculous when I think about all of the other work I have to do for my other classes. What am I talking about? I hardly do anything I am supposed to because I am forever distracted by music, fanfiction and manga – oh shoot I forgot to read the new chapter of Naruto!! Aside from that, I am back on pace I don’t feel as stressed out as I had last week when I had 2 papers, a presentation, an exam and work. But I’ve been making good money so hurrah! Going to get back to work now….well hopefully. Goodnight.

 

Danielle

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November 12, 2010 at 7:24 am

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I’m going to go crazy here

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UR is just not my type of school. Most of the people are so not my cup of tea. Yeah, I know it’s only been like 2-3 months but I’m following my human cliquey instincts. I’m so glad I found Maitland and Holly or else I wouldn’t have been able to last. But there is a certain somebody that has really been grating on my nerves for the past few days. I just can’t talk to this person now without snapping at them and I really hate to do that because they don’t deserve it. I just need a nice vacation away from them. Thanksgiving hurry please! Danielle

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October 27, 2010 at 12:49 am

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Hello Again

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I don’t really know where to begin. For the time being I would just like to say hello again to my online journal. I have missed you. I feel like I am somewhat a new person from when I last posted. For starters, I am a college student now. I go to the University of Richmond, and live on the Westhampton College campus. It has been a great experience for me so far. I don’t feel quite as grown-up as I had initially thought I would once I got out of my house and into my dorm. I’m not exactly making my own rules, well besides deciding what ridiculous hour I will be getting to bed every night. Sleep is definitely one of my closest friends since I have begun school. If I have free time all I really want to do is crawl onto my elevated bed (that is a pain to get in) and roll up in my monkey snuggie and sleep the daylight away, that is if I don’t have anymore classes for the day. I like my roommate and the room we share. Her name is Fionna, she is Chinese and speaks Cantonese. She was born and raised in Massachusetts though, and has taught me a few things to say but she doesn’t read or write in her language. We’ve talked a lot about old Japanese movies we watched when we were younger, she watched them in Cantonese and I either enjoyed dubbed or subbed versions. I think we’ve come to agree that Spirited Away, Princess Mononoke and Howl’s Moving Castle are the best. She got me to watch some Totoro which I had always had glimpses of but never actually watched and in turn after I showed her Ponyo we argued about whether it was a bad movie since Miley Cyrus’ younger sister dubbed the voice a few years ago. I still think it is amazing and I watched the subbed version last night when I didn’t sleep until 6 a.m working on a bio paper. It really is such a cute movie. Speaking of my room, I have some pics of what my room initially looked like when I first set it up.

It’s changed a bit since then but I’d rather take more photos while the sun is up and the room is naturally lit. I will work on that tomorrow. And to just randomly throw my schedule out there, I am in 4 classes one of which has a lab for my biology class. The other 3 are Japanese, a first-year seminar in which I am taking a course on animals in literature, and a human figure art class where we sketch nude figures. I have so interesting choices here at Richmond so I’m pretty excited to continue choosing more courses. So, I’ve added in my first semester schedule. It is the worst I’ve seen by far among everyone I’ve met. My Wednesdays are completely packed and I always feel dead on my feet by the end of the day. Just another 2 months and that big mistake will be completely changed. Firstly, no 8 a.m classes! No Friday classes! And definitely no classes past 2! I have learned my lesson. But boy do I love college!

Danielle Smart ’14

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October 8, 2010 at 9:57 pm

Daily in Prob & Stat w Candice Kathleen & Alyssa

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Hiccup : ). Yay for probability and statistics! Danielle has an obssesion… John Mayer. See picture of John and fans.

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May 21, 2010 at 9:37 am

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The Big News

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Due to the a record number of applicants this year I was not accepted to Macaulay Honors College at Hunter College for the class of 2010. I’m so disappointed and down now because I lost this opportunity to go college for free. SO many perks not to mention it is an absolutely amazing and challenging school!! I just hope to everything that I will be accepted to my other 5 choices. It was really hard stomaching this rejection, I was so ready to fall out and cry but I know I must remain optimistic.

On the bright side I was still accepted into Hunter College and I consider that an honor even if the school itself is not and will not be free for me. I’m thankful to them for accepting me and if my other choices decide they also cannot accommodate me Hunter College will be where I will possibly spend my next 4 years.

Danni

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March 24, 2010 at 4:16 pm

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