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Update 04.14.11

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Next Friday marks the beginning of the end of classes. Since I have no Friday classes this means I have only 4 more days of classes before finals and before I can finally get out of here! To put it plainly, I am exhausted. I turned in my final paper for philosophy today and I still have a work in progress for a chemistry group project but besides that and finals I am practically finished. It feels so good to be alive :)

Last week was really the worst week of these two semesters for me. I pulled three all nighters and worked eight hour shifts four days out of the week. I must have slept about 9 hours that whole week. I’m still feeling the exhaustion now so when I went to sleep last night and got eight hours of sleep my body probably couldn’t believe it because I was in a state of physical shock the whole day.

Not to mention (that is such a contradictory statement) my mom moved to Florida exactly two weeks ago and doesn’t give a crap if I get the same amount of financial aid that I received for being an instate student. Luckily, I talked to the financial office and they said I have a grant that will carry over until next year. I’ve never been so angry at a single person. I don’t even want to go down there. I should make the condition that Sephora has to come with or I’m not coming. Great plan :) I’ve been working nonstop at the Cellar out of fear of not being able to afford my phone bill among other things. When ever I see shifts pop up I grab them immediately. I actually worked an extra cook shift yesterday and am working a server shift this Saturday. I’ll be working my regular Friday Sunday and Monday shift and this extra server shift. That’s my whole weekend. That means I worked five days this week. Wanna cry dude :(

Just two more weeks until I’m done and can say I’m a sophomore!

Danielle

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April 15, 2011 at 2:44 am

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The Stress

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The pressure will drive me insane. There is just too much for me to do in a day, a week a semester. Did I really have Spring Break just last week??? When I try to sleep at night I can’t. When I try to get naps they aren’t long enough. How does college expect me to survive. I can hardly think let alone do something productive. Not to mention I have two midterms coming up this week. Chemistry and philosophy, officially my most difficult classes. The worst part is for philosophy I have no idea what I’m even reading most of the time. How am I supposed to complete a whole midterm on the reading too? What worries me the most is that there is going to be a final O.O

I’m also working on an anthropology presentation that I have tomorrow. My partner and I never met up or even talked about it until yesterday. I am an absolute mess.

Danielle

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March 15, 2011 at 4:53 pm

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IPad 2 Release Today!

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I came to New York for spring break and I brought along my roommate Fionna. We came last Saturday via Chinese bus from Richmond to Chinatown. Six and a half hour drive people! Once we got into the city I found out that our ride into queens (aka my aunt) was no where near to picking us up so we had to take all of our luggage and my bunny rabbit in her carrier onto the subway. Poor Sephora was already scared senseless and then she had to deal with that loud subway. What made it worse was the F train being out of service so we had to go down into brooklyn just to get onto the correct train. It was too much in one day and with three bags a piece. When my aunt got us from the subway station we decided to eat out for the night but that took forever to decide on of course and my brother had to be picked up from home so he could join in. Thai was the meal of the night in the end. It was delicious. It was this restaurant a bit into Long Island down Merrick Road. All of this description means I forgot the name.

Fionna and I ended up spending the whole of Sunday napping and tv watching in my living room. It’s been such a long time since I sat down and watched television, there’s a tv in my dorm room now and I still don’t watch it. I’m so busy with work all the time I can’t enjoy entertainment. Still find the time for fanfics though. Fionna left Monday for Boston. I actually popped that “do you want to go New York with me tomorrow” question the day before we left. Fionna wasn’t planning on going anywhere for spring break but this gave her something to do and a cheap alternative from getting a flight home. She really surprised her parents, literally, she arrived in Boston called her dad and was like “can I get a ride home?” Her mom was even funnier she yelled at her and then hugged her. So Kodak.

With Fionna gone my sister and aunt at either work or school and my brother at a DECA competition I was going to be alone all day everyday until Thursday. My sister had the audacity to invite me to her boring school where there are no couches or anywhere comfortable to sit I was so tired that day and sleeping actually hurt. Big mistake.

After that it got better. Fionna came back bright and early Thursday and we went out to Koreatown to meet friends from our university. We went to a traditional like Korean restaurant called Han Bat on 35th between 5th and 6th. There was this giant shrimp in my dish, whose name I can’t even duplicate at the moment. It was pretty good though. My sister and her friend Matt, who’s in a jazz band that I’ve gone to seen, came to have dinner also. Our group left the restaurant and went to a hookah bar down on Astor place. First hookah experience. It was amazingly fun. I want to do it again as soon as possible. Afterwards we were sort of forced to split up because our friends got through to the 6 train and we didn’t make it haha. Very fun night though. My aunt was pissed because we were out until 3.

Which brings me today. For the last 3 or 4 days I’ve been going on the apple website and watching all the videos and reading all the info on the new iPad 2 released today. And today around 1:00 pm Fionna and I got to Prince St saw the line for the apple store already going down a whole block and joined it. We stood in line for five and a half hours and I bought an iPad. I’m an iPad owner as of today. I love this thing. I’m excited about all the things I’ll be able to do with it. We’ll see how much I’ll fall in love.

Danielle

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March 12, 2011 at 5:22 am

Finals Papers and Exams

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Stating the obvious here but the end of the semester is Friday. Yes, my final class for the Fall 2010 semester is this Friday. I am so stressed. I’m experiencing huge bouts of fatigue and depression. I have two papers to do in practically one day. Thursday. The worst part is that I haven’t even started either of  these papers. I’d rather be online blogging, which I’ve hardly had time to do, then start two very important papers. It’s ridiculous how askew my priorities are. One of these papers, mind you, is the final project for a class important to my major, Animal Embryology! At this moment I am sitting in the lab with my partners attempting to finish our experiment so that we can get some results on the table. We are the only team not complete at this point which is extremely distressing.

I don’t know what I am expecting myself to accomplish with how tired I’ve been. If I wanted to finish then I would need to work nonstop on those papers starting….well now. And I can’t with my embryology paper because we haven’t even finished our experiment. This week has been so frustrating for me, and although I don’t show it much in appearance I am super stressed at the moment. That is exactly what I do with everything. I act like I don’t give a shit the entire time but inside there is a mad rush in my head trying to work out a plan. With my level of procrastination I’d say that I probably don’t give a shit deep down. I just rush into a panic out of fear of failing.

Do I want to become an obstetrician and have a brilliant and bright future? Yes. Do I want to be a successful person in life? Yes. Do I want to be successful in college? I’m not sure. I am literally not giving it my all and I don’t even know how to begin to give my school work that much attention. I never studied in high school. Ever. I either knew it or I didn’t and even with that I still did pretty well with mostly A’s. College is totally different though. The professors expect me to not only study but also study at least 5 hours a week, per class! This is not crazy to some people because they’ve already been in the studying regime since high school. I, however, have been in my own little laid back bubble, naïve of what was to come to me once I stepped onto the Richmond campus. And I wanted to go to NYU! Psh. They would have slaughtered me after a few weeks. I can hardly believe I made it through this semester.

As I’m writing this I’m also admitting a lot of insecurities that I wasn’t even aware that I possessed. It’s like things are spilling through my fingers straight from the back of my head or something and I’m just realizing how scared I am about failing. I don’t want to coast through college. I want to be fantastic. And that means getting my ass off of WordPress right this minute and looking for sources for my FYS paper. I’ll be back once the semester is over.

Danielle

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December 1, 2010 at 8:22 pm

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Oh I am so happy that it is the weekend. I’ve waited too long all the labs and gym class and chemistry gone until Monday. I sit here now in my baggiest most comfortable and warmest pajamas – it is absolutely freezing. I’m still waiting for my new pea coat to come in the mail. Mymom ordered it on Monday (thanks Mommy – am I the only one that still says mommy at 16 years old) and lots of reviews said that it would be coming in two to three days but when my mom checked the status it says next Wednesday. Isn’t that mad? I have to wait five extra days in order to be warm. It’s like thirty odd degrees out everyday with a windchill of about zero I feel like Jack Dawson near to sinking to a frozen t.v. dinner death. Enough of my sad humor. You know how sometimes you are so unbelievably tired that you could be doing anything in general and then your eyes completely glaze over like there’s wax paper over it? That is exactly what happened to me just now so I am going to have to hit the sack – that sounds so uncomfortable and ridiculous. What person in their unmad mind would want to sleep on a sack? And it would probably be some kind of itchy potato sack by the sounds of it. Ick. Yes, now it is really time for bed.

danielle

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November 21, 2008 at 11:16 pm

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Not For It.

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Today’s not a day for babbling – you can only do that so many times before you retch pure stupidity. I’m just tired, and I always get these pains in my left shoulder so that is just adding to my lethargic state of mind. of course I have school work to do which I don’t really mind, it helps me stay on top of things, but I feel busted of energy right now. (Maybe a few hours of Sims will help)(Wow I’m not even in the mood for smileys)(or lols) Ugh tired…..

danielle

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November 20, 2008 at 4:12 pm

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A family friend said that I should never be bored because of something about being alive that I can’t quite remember but I feel it profusely right now and I can’t help it. The last couple of days have been school cleaning studying and sleeping. I feel as if I have no choice. I really want a job. I thought I would volunteer as a candy striper and get a job as well. Thank everything you can make up your own hours when it comes to community service. It’s just the getting the job part that is the hardest. My sister has been trying to get a job since early this year. I don’t know what that implies when it comes to me getting a job.

I’ve kind of been enjoying myself lately – besides the boredom – because I’ve retreated into my books. I’ve read about 6 in the past 4 days. I’m imagination is going wild with all the different endings I have been making for each book I’ve finished. I’m such a dork at heart. Today in American History this kid, Victor, nearly jumped out of his seat when I told him I loved dictionary.com and referring to my own dictionary. I’ve never seen anyone laugh that hard and creepily in my life. I mean what is so surprising. I can’t highlight and write my own example sentences in my own dictionary and constantly check dictionary.com for grammar or spelling mistakes. I love words.

Besides that I’ve been coming home earlier in the afternoon, around 3:30 sometimes. Usually I just go home and lounge around like I "used" to *snicker snicker*. But Sister said that I should come and meet her up at Laguardia before her 6 o’clock class so we can hang out around LIC. Sounds tempting. If only she went to school at NYU or Hunter. I’d be in Manhattan in a minute.

You can tell that school has completely numbed my mind what with all the book and grammar talk and especially about meeting up at someone else’s school. I feel crazy half the time really. I fall asleep in class a lot. But I’m starting to enjoy art again. It’s not as boring if you break out of the routine a bit and do somethings that you just feel like doing and go with your own flow.

What’s funny now is that am at the library again today and I just borrowed three more books. That probably make about 20 books since the 4 times I’ve been here since last week. I need a shirt that says nerd alert. You know, just so people can be well, alert.

danielle
 

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October 27, 2008 at 5:52 pm

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